well im sitting her again thinking over everything..and as usual i start to cry again!why?i really dont know what to say about that.After my horses were put in the summer pasture i have hardly stepped out of the house.i dont realy know but something about the summer.I hate summer,everyone are so beautiful with perfect bodysI cant take it very much longer.My friend here (you know who you are)have helped me very much,she has made me smile again.I havent smiled in ages.why should i ?I hate my self soooo much

why cant i just be normal?

I am so tired of beeing sick and i cant take it anymore.everyday is just remebereing to take my medicin.i am going crazy very soon..i am only living for my baby girl!!!