hi

       i went to my pdoc mon and today and thurs i go three times a week because my son joeys birthday is nov 19 and i miss him most aroung his birthday and xmas i just feel i live at my pd office i dont know if it is helping i told him since losing my son and now my daughter i wanted to go back in the hospital but my other daughter makes jokes about mental hospitals and mental illness on fb i feel like i have to stay strong but i cant all the time she says if she can deal with it why cant i. i am socthearted and cant deal with it my others kids seem to get on and live with it i try to sleep as much as possible so i cant feel anything i know that isnt the answer but that is what i am doing. well i hope everyone is well i will try and write tommorow           nikki