seeing that this is my first entry i thought maybe i should go easy, but i find that impossible. ive never shared how i feel and what i go through with anyone except my psychiatrist, therapist, or wife before. Im going through a med change right now because the old wasn't helping with the voices that haunt my life. I am afraid of side effects but am told they should be tolerable. at this time as i write i feel as though i am very close to loosing it. my mind and body feel foriegn to me and i feel like pulling the hair from my head. i feel very distant from the life i wish i could have. every thought i have is contradicted by the voices and i often have trouble distinguishing them from one another which has a tendency to cause me great confusion and anguish. i can only hope and pray for better times