Just wanted to give everyone an update..........
I'm still working my booty off and hardly  have the time to be here as much as I'd like to be.  I really miss y'all so much!! 
I'm still without meds and though I'm doing alright so far, they're starting to get out of my system and it's got me on eggshells.  I really enjoy my job and especially that paycheck at the end of the week, but when the meds completely leave me, I'm not sure how I'll do.  To add to things, my therapist is leaving soon and that means I'll have no therapist.  I refuse to go back to the last two places I went to, and she's really the only one I've liked and trusted.  I really don't know where to go from here, but will continue to take things one baby step at a time and hope I can do this. 
On a brighter note, I think of y'all often and hope everyone is doing well.  I should have more time on my hands next week, I'm hoping, and I will be here as much as I can.  Please don't think I've forgotten bout y'all or that I don't give a hoot.  I just don't have as much time to be here.
Much love and many hugs,
Pip


When life serves you lemons, forget the lemonade!  Bash em with a baseball bat!

I wrote another song the day after I wrote "Just Fly."   All any of us can do is take things one day at a time and do the best we can.  I am starting a job tomorrow.  Haven't worked in five years and don't know if I'm going to be able to stick with it or not, but all I can do is give my 100% and take it from there.  I am almost out of meds and as insurance is screwed up again, well that will put me without another pdoc appt and without meds for a while once more.  As my job will be assembly work, I'll be pressed for time and trying to make production and it's going to be interesting with nothing to go on but a wing and a prayer.   I will be stapling, so that's easy enough, yet with my mood swings...........I will praying I don't staple someone to the wall. LOL
I will be working nine hours a day Mon.-Thurs.  then half a day on Fri.  Most weekends off and only working some Sat's.  So, y'all wish me luck and say a prayer for me if ya find the time. 

When life serves you lemons, forget the lemonade!  Bash em with a baseball bat!


Just for Today

I hold my head high
take control of this life
that's
starting to fray
just for today.
Yesterday's gone
so I keep standing
strong
in my faith I will stay
just for today.

If I never see
tomorrow
I've done what I should
Kept my head above water
did all that
I could 
to make it some way
just for today.

Can't waste no more
time
have to take what is mine
cast my sorrow away
just for today.
I'll never give in
and fight to the win
so I'll be okay
just for
today.

If I see tomorrow 
I've done all I could
To prove I can
make it
like I knew I would
come what may
and call it today.

Copyright © 2008 - Pippi

As spring is finally here and my bipolar is even more rapid than ever, with more highs than anything, I found the inspiration to write this song.   There are times that I feel like I'm a prisoner to myself and just want to break free and spread my wings.  Hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. 

When life serves you lemons, forget the lemonade!  Bash em with a baseball bat!



Just Fly

When your days seem long
and you think you can't go on
take a breath, and look to the sky
With your arms outstretched 
and the
world beneath your feet
Spread your wings...
and just fly

Just
fly
high above the mountains
Just fly
across the open sea
Give
yourself that chance
let your spirit dance...
and just fly

When
your worries get you down
and those chains keep you bound
break loose, no
more to cry
For the courage within
gives a new place to begin
So
spread your wings...
and just fly

Just fly 
high above the
mountains
Just fly
across the open sea
Give yourself that chance
let your spirit dance...
and just fly

Copyright © 2008 - Pippi

Shine On

You sit there crying, feeling hopeless
consumed by tears that
fall like rain
Deep inside you look for something
to help you find yourself
again
Amidst the state of your confusion
just don't know what you should
do
Listen close for the voice is calling
that lives deep inside of you

With a soul wide open
let yourself shine 
with a heart so free
Keep your eyes to the heavens
and know you can be 
all you can be
shine on 


When you release that glow you keep hidden
you'll
dance with the moon, ride on the beam
Stand up with the power within you
take hold of your life and live out your dream
No more worries about
tomorrow
and forgetting about yesterday
You take the here and now and call
it your own
and shine your heart away

shine on

Copyright © 2008 - Pippi


Sorry I've been away for so long.  I'll try to get back asap.  I'll answer all mail when I get back.  I've not forgotten about anyone.  Take care and shine on!
Pippi

When life serves you lemons, forget the lemonade!  Bash em with a baseball bat!

As I sit and look out over the mountains that surround me, it brings to mind that we all have our own mountains to climb.  Life is full of surprises and it brings us valleys that seem so long and lonely.  But, when we reach that mountain, we are determined to make it to the top.  To feel the sense of accomplishment, to look out over the plains and see where we have been and what we've made it through. 
As I climb each mountain, I start climbing with the security that I don't have far to fall.  But, as I keep climbing higher I am overwhelmed for I know my fall will not be broken, yet I will not stop and move backward, for I know that success awaits me at the top.  I move slowly, taking the time to think of this very moment.  A rock slips beneath me.  I want to look down, yet I dare not.  To weaken my possibilities would only destroy all I have worked for.  The only choice is to look up, knowing I have yet farther to go, it gives me hope for I have made it this far.  I am almost to the top, but I have grown so tired.  I struggle even harder as I dangle from the peak with only one arm holding on.  I then wonder what it is I have to prove.   Though the valley be lonely and dark, I can keep my feet planted............It is then I realize, I have to keep moving.  As I gain my strength, I pull myself to the top.  I look around and see the valley I just walked through.   So long, so dark.  I look ahead and see the valleys and mountains that lie before me.     As the sun shines so warmly on my face, a sense of gladness consumes me.  I have made it.  Right here, this very moment I am standing on the top of success for I have overcome another day of struggles.
 
When life serves you lemons, forget the lemonade!  Bash em with a baseball bat!

The weather is great, sun shining, light country breeze blowing.........what a terrific day!!  I managed to wash down the outside of the house, wash my car, drove into town, then took the boys (dogs) for a ride and played ball with them for a while.  It's now 3:00  and there's still plenty for me to do on the inside, but I just want to enjoy the day outside for a change.  I know once the bees start flying I won't get out much, so I'm taking advantage of it while I can.  Right now I'm taking a small break and then going out again.  The boys are so tired from playing so hard.  I think they've enjoyed the weather just as much as me.  My allergies are already taking effect, but oh well!  I don't have many days like this and if I have to sneeze and sniffle my way through it, I'm enjoying it to the fullest!!!  :P 
Hope y'all have a wonderful day. 
I'm off for some more fresh air. 
Much love!
Pip

When life serves you lemons, forget the lemonade!  Bash em with a baseball bat!

Walking through the entrance, cool chills run down my spine.  Haunting winds echo throughout as I now reach the core.  The stones beneath my feet throw me from my balance, but I won't stay down.  I hold to the damp walls as I feel my way through this darkness.  All things left behind me, I press forward in wonder........how many have traveled this same path before me?   Once thinking it to be a myth, I reach the end and find there is light.  Just beyond my reach, there is an open world.  A world that holds the freedom I have longed for. 

I am a vessel that floats atop these open waters.  My heart the biggest sail that has been weathered and mended time and again.  I ride each wave with confidence that I can make it no matter what.  Just when the shoreline is within reach, the sky grows dark, the winds pick up, and the rain moves in. Lightening flashes all around as thunder rolls in the distance. I am sent into a whirlwind and the waves crash against me as I fight to stay afloat.    Just when I think I'm going under, the sky clears and the rain stops.  With this ship left battered once more, I reach the shore to mend my sails.  As I set out for another journey, I see behind me the storms I have made it through.  Looking ahead, I am stronger for the next. 


The Storm

Out of anger thunder roars
Whirling clouds are the thoughts in
store
With each flash of lightening, there is pain
Tears roll down as it
starts to rain
Gusting winds in their emotional blow
Caught in the storm as
on life's journey I go

Copyright © 2005 - Pippi

Well, I'm off for the weekend.  Wishing for y'all to be happy, safe and blessed while I'm away. 
Much love,
Pippi

As tomorrow is Valentine's Day and it's been a big topic of today, my mind has went back in time for a bit.  Valentine's Day was never a good holiday for me.  It has either been a time of breakup or some kind of disappointment, so it's not one of my favorites for sure. 

In school, I was the pimple-faced buck tooth kid that never kept up with the latest fashion and all.  A lot of boys spent a lot of the day making fun of me in some way.  But, I always managed to look past it and knew that someone would eventually like me for who I was rather than what I looked like.  When Valentine's Day came around I would get excited and always put back the best card for the boy I liked most.  I