my husband has been telling me -- i told u i don't want u to be on that web site... this one.

my hubby is going to be soo disapointed that i'm taking my pchy med's again. he wanted in trying to have a baby since we are getting older-i'm 30 and he is 34 i think-lol.

the dr. asked me what i wanted to do.. i said i would stick with my med's i want to be well first before having more kids and just worried i would not be able to care for them while having bipolar that never goes away.

i was told i could completly get off the med's for 3 months without taking anything but i will crash into myself since my depression has been so deeply in love with me and is unable to leave me alone as well with bipolar issues. i wantt o make sure that my issues are handled well like well controlled by me but right now i'm unable with out the med's. my husband tells me i just want to be high on my pills. that's not true- i hope not. i don't even know what i believe within my own self anymore.

dr. advised me to take my med's again. bipolar does not ever go alway and it's really disapointing to know so. i have to start taking Lithobid 300mg again and not stop them without speaking to the dr.

i did not know i can get into lots of trouble by taking others med's-ouch.

i had asked if there was a possabilty that if someday my hubby and i wanted to seperate, can my kids be taken away because i'm on pchyco med's, i was told it would depend on the judge. sometimes judge can say ok u can not take care of yourself u are on pchy care or they can say ok but u are being cared for.

i really thought that i was getting better but no, it has made me feel good for a bout 3 months but slightly my bipolar came out slowly. it's always been here with me-it sucks.

i've been noticing that slowly i have been staying away from people i use to chat with including family-they just bug me sometimes. like a month ago i've pulled out my eye lashes and i use fake one's. i still pull out my head hairs. i've started to scratch my sculp until bleeding. my emptions have been crazy to normal, from gay to straight and vis.. ; i don't feel this way anymore but do like watching other women when passing by-just wishing i could have there boobs-any ways.

i have much more to talk about but i forgot what i was going to say-oh ya my symptoms would be having to chaNGE my mind about everything and having little flings with other men, which has happen. i could be just sitting down all relaxed and in my mind it just pops out- ok i'm gone to japan then i leave without thinking. i have panic attacks and anxiety and will have it for the rest of my life and it sucks.

 

i've been free since november 20,07 feel just fine-like new. depression is still around-bipolar can be hiding and can come out, but i hope it stays where it's at i'm finer than ever.

i've dyed my hair all black with rasberry color stricks. i like it very much. i did it on my b-day on jan 12th, turned 30yrs. old and wanted to feel/look younger.

i'm practicing sign language fingerspelling. i enjoy it and will be a big help to others with these issues.

how can i tell if i have an affection inside of me?

hello to u all.....happy new yr! 2008 ahhh wow, a new start of life again.

i've been feeling fine thank you. i've been off my lamactal 200mgs meds for bipolar2 since november 20th or so, of 2007.

i'm still taking depression med's- fluoxetine 20mgs.

how long do we need to wait before us getting pregnant after taking the med's?

hi

i  just got out of the hosp yesterday. got my surgery. and ohoh boy it hurts when i sit and walk and everythink i do. when i breath it hurts.

almost everyday when we can, we go to the cemetary and place flowers to every grave even though we don't the person. i feel i need to do it, it makes me feel good. there is so many old graves that been there for yrs like 1819 and nobody ever places flowers so my girls and i do. the workers think i'm wired-but i'm just kind.

i'm not supose to eat today all day long just liquids.

so what do u all say about the pic i've posted-   is it possible?