What a day, had to call 911 this am because of a migraine, ( the ins company nurse said I should), worst migraine of my life...turns out I have a massive sinus infection, that triggered the migraine.  So I spent most of the day asleep, soon as hub got home with antibiotics, and pain meds To bed I went.  Now of course I won't sleep tonight, but I'm gonna try!
Off to dreamland (good ones I hope)!
Kit

Hey this is the 2nd time writing this, lost the first copy...School starts in about 10 days and anxiety level is through the roof!  I know I'm good in school,  have passed all classes with A's, (online and in nnursing school, but still anxiety rears it's ugly head.  I think I can handle being around people, because the classes are small...only worried about statistics and algebra, but the school has free tutoring, and a good friend oh here has promised to help>  So I think I can puzzle through  em with lots of help.
I even get a new laptop from the school!
I don't know why I'm so nervous, I'll be training for the job I eventually want, (Health Care Administrator) but it is a 3 year time commitment, and I'm afraid i'll get 'sick' again.
As the day grows nearer tho I'm having more and more panic attacts.  I try not to mention it the chat room, cuz it sounds like whining, and I try to be uplifting for everyone there, they have their own problems, and don't need to listen to mine all the time.
Anyone out there know how to chill the anxiety without more meds... I take enough meds no to choke a horse, and don't need more....I think if i asked doc for more he'd think I had a 3rd head, because of the high dose of Xanax I take........and have tried deep breathing, warm baths, progressive relaxation, just don't work for me.
any suggestions?

Well I've dropped on-line school, decided it just wasn't gonna get me where I want to go.  I'm going to brave a local school(which means lots of changes for me..I'll have to drive and be around ppl again)  but it's an 3 yr accelerated Bachelors degree in Health Care Administration.  I start April 14th.  I'm excited and scared, but I know I can do this...I'll just have to work EXTRA hard on controlling my bi-polar symptoms.  If I have a problem I'll deal  with it as it comes up.  I have alot of support, from friends, ( a few on here) my hub and daughter, and my gram.  It helps to have people to lean on.  I also use the health card system from Julie fast, which has been a big help.

ok that's it for now

Kit

Well it's not going too bad, although I'm taking classes now, online of course, really trying  hard not to stress myself out.  Had to start taking Geodon again so that I don't go manic from the stress.  My daughter is being a typical teen, and I'm having the usual doubts about my parenting ability.  All in all I'm not doing bad.  I do need to see my doc and T tho.  My T will be really happy that I've started school again. 
I should be ok if I can keep the anxiety at a low level.  I don't doubt my intelligence, just my ability to adhere to timelines.  Hopefully I won't fall behind or anything
Kit

It's been quite a while since I started this,  but have been thru some rocky timeschanged meds around a bit and am doing well now.  Went thru mania for about a month,,,fun part was not sleeping for a month.  My psychiatrist was out with dbl pneumonia for quite a while, so no help there.  Am still having visual and auditory hallucinations, but not as badly  We've moved and that didn't help the mania at all, not to mention that hub was such a jerk when I was manic that I almost threw him out.  Rule # 1, NEVER aggravate someone who's highly manic, and rule # 2  confrontation by yelling doesnt get any results!!!!!!!!!

all for now

Kitcatz

Hi all, I'm 36 years old, have had bipolar1 with psychotic featureds since i wes 15, but not dxd till I was 30.  Been an uphill struggle since then.  I seem to be stable these days on meds, however i take a ton, 8 different ones, including prn's.  I know it's alot but it's working for me.   I still have days of the lowest lows, and the manic highs.( which aren't happy and high, more like nasty and impulsive and mean at times.) and i still struggle with auditory and physical hallucinations.  But I work closely with the doc to keep these at a minimum.  Have been hospitalized countless times.  Lost track after the first dozen or so. Usually when I am Manic. I am married, well i should say remarried to my first husband, there was another in between but he doesn't count, he was a controlling jerk.  so 3 marraiges, 2 to the same man..  And he's wonderful about the bipolar.  Of course before we got remarried I insisted he educate himself about bipolar, and it seems to have worked!

I surround myself with animals, and they help me so much.  They always seem to know when I'm upset, so at those times I have a dog and 3 cats in my lap.  I love animals cuz they don't judge!

I can't say life is all peachy, but I do the best I can to survive this illness!

Kitcatz

this is getting ridiculous, not sleeping again, anxiety is kicking my butt.   have to go spend 2 weeks with my mother,.  not nesecscessarly  my fave thing to do.  My daughter and I are going to spend 2 weeks in july with my mom and step dad, so anxiety there.  

Hub isn't being much help, he sits in front o ftv any time he's  h ome' ugh

mania is going to rear it's ugly facer if i don't start sleeping soon.  Can't happen when i have to go to moms.  dont' trust mom to not take my daughter if i gt manic.but she's tried before.anyway anyonwe have any suggestiong as thohow to keep the anxiety under control, or the mania?