I have been very busy today. Susan loaned me the car today even though I don't have a drivers license. I had to go get us some ciggies and drop her off a pack. I figured while I had the car why not drop off a couple of applications. I picked up apps from Big Lots and GoodWill. Susan wanted me to bring her $11 to pay someone off that she borrowed. I did that then dropped off those two apps. I also took the trash to the dumpster behind my old store. hehehe I don't have $5 to buy trash stickers. You have to put a $1 sticker on each trash bag here or they won't haul it away. I also picked up a free fountain drink while I was at my old store. I miss having my mountain dews! On my way home after dumping the trash I stopped off at the video store and picked up an application. I am filling it out now. I will drop it off on my way to pick up Susan from work at 10pm. So that makes three apps done in one day. I would rather do it this way than walking in the heat to pick them up and drop them off.
I also filed for unemployment online. If I had known it was that easy I would have done it three weeks ago. Noone told me how to do it so I googled Indiana Unemployment. Here you have to register with a job site online in order to continue to get unemployment checks. They use debit cards in this state. I wonder if I should work on getting another job or just wait for my unemployment checks??? We will see.
So it has been a busy day. I got to spend some time online with my friends dave and margo. It was fun to get caught up. Dave I am glad you are out of the hospital.
Well I am starving so I better make myself some rice. I have to file for food stamps too. But in this state you can't file online. I printed out the forms and will take them to the local office right down the street on Monday. I also have to go to my doctor's office to pick up my risperdal. I don't know why they can't mail it to me. grrrr
Off to dinner.
katy
Oh great. Not only do I have to worry about rent now I have to worry about the electric being cut off next Wednesday. There has got to be a worrying angel somewhere. Let the angel do my worrying for me. It would be nice if there was a money angel around as well!!!
I was going to have a garage sale this weekend. First we didn't have the money to place an ad in the paper. You have to use a credit card for the $10 fee. Well we don't have a cc. Next we could only place the ad in saturdays paper because it is too late for fridays paper deadline. Well I called Susan and she said we will just have to do the garage sale next weekend because of the fee and it is supposed to rain now through saturday. grrr We could have used the garage sale money to pay the electric. grrrr
Well everything usually works out in its own time. I just have to be patient and try not to worry.
P.S. Dave call me or Margo!!!
I slept today away. I don't know why I slept so long. I went to bed at 3am and woke up with the alarm at 5pm. I think I sleep walked and took an extra seroquel last night but I can't quite remember doing it.
Yesterday was fun. Susan was at work all day. She called me about 5pm and asked me to bring her some medicine to her work. Well I got dressed, got the medicine and walked the mile to her work. She bought me the dinner buffet even though we can't afford it. I got lots of computer time yesterday but I also watched some tv.
When I got up at 5pm I wanted to get dressed and go talk to these people about getting electric assistance to pay our bill. We were also supposed to go over to the community food bank and get some food. Our house is empty except for rice and top ramen! Well Susan was sleepy and cranky so she didn't get up to drive me to those two places. That is okay. We will solve our problems some how. I just get in a rush to do things 'right now'. Usually I am laid back so when I want to do things 'right now' that is an indicator that I am a bit manic. So I took an ativan and just let the two appointments slide by on the clock. Instead I snuggled with Susan for a couple of hours.
At 9pm Susan's work called and they wanted her to bring the store keys back so they could lock up the restaurant. Susan was still sleeping so she sent me even though I don't have a drivers license. (I have warrants out in two states!) Well I brought the key to the manager and then I went to CVS. Before I left I counted out all of our change from the change bucket. It totalled $8.05. When I got to CVS I ordered two packs of ciggies and it came to $7.98!!! SCORE!!! I hate being poor but this recession is hurting a lot of people not just us. So if you have a job...KEEP IT. In a recession is not the time to be job hunting!
Well I am going to read my bible and then watch some tv. Enjoy the rest of your Wednesday.
I am on my second cup of coffee. I slept three hours last night. Susan is on her third double today! I have a list of stuff to get done today. I am waiting for the sun to come up so I can change the patio light bulb. I also have to move the drapes from the bedroom to the living room. We only have one set of drapes. We got them at the salvation army. They are the kind that block out all the sunlight. We are out of lightbulbs or I would change the other three that are out. LOL I have to screw together the bottom to the tops of the bookshelf and the dresser. I have a 60lb mirror that needs to hang in the office. I have to go to the hardware store and ask them how to hang it. I might need some heavy duty screws or something. I also have to hang a large pink picture on the side wall in this office.
I did a lot of work around the house yesterday. I moved the bookcase in to the office. It was in two parts so I didn't hurt myself. I organized the office and vaccuumed it. I vaccuumed the living room too. Susan hates the vaccuum so I do it when she is at work! I also did a load of laundry. I also switched out my printer table. It was on a nightstand table now it is on a rolling cart with room for my paper and envelopes so they aren't all over my desk. I put the nightstand on the front patio where we have all our garage sale stuff. I am going to try and have a garage sale this coming weekend. We need the money and we need to empty off that patio! I also organized all the dvds in to the new entertainment center. Now all Susan has to do is move all her 50.000 knick knacks in to place! I hate doing that because I will break em. I am a clutz. I have to organize the office some more today. So I have a couple hours of work to do. I will take a nap in an hour or so. I am tired. I have to sleep when Susan is at work so I am able to wake her up and get her out the door. I already ironed her two uniforms for today. All the laundry is done.
I have been in a good mood all weekend. I might even be called happy. I am not on a manic. I haven't had one of those in years. I am just not depressed so that is it. I get a lot done in these happy moods instead of just lying in bed or in the recliner watching dvds. I also have to write a couple of letters today.
My Aunt Effie and her husband are sending me $300 to help pay for rent. I have to write her a thank you note. I can't believe my Uncle Johnny is turning 80 in October! I have to find a special birthday card for him. He let me stay at his house for a year my senior year in school. That was in 1982. The time sure does fly!! I will be 44 on the 22nd. I feel 30. LOL I don't mind my age. It just means I am older and wiser. Or I am a 44 year old clutz. lmao
Well I better get to writing those letters and changing light bulbs.
I haven't actually made my pot of coffee yet but I am working on it. Susan's work schedule is messing with my normal sleep schedule. She has been working her tail off since Friday. Friday she worked 5p-1am. Yesterday she worked 5p-1am. Today she worked 5a-2p and is currently working 5p-10p. She has only had 3 hours sleep in two days because she only gets a few hours before her next shift starts. I am glad she is working but she does need to get her sleep. I am hoping that when she gets home tonight around 11pm that she goes right to bed. She has to get up at 4am tomorrow (monday) morning. Which means I have to be up at 4am too. Before every shift I make sure her clothes are ironed and hanging on the bathroom door. I also lay out her socks, undies, bra and hair clip. I lay out her medicines as well. I stuff everything she might need in to her purse. Yep. You guessed it I spoil her big time. She doesn't wake up with the alarm so I am her personal alarm! I wake her up 10 minutes before she needs to get out of bed. Then I tell her 10 minutes and this gives her time to get over the grumpies and sleepies. She has done good these past three days. She hasn't been grumpy at me because of lack of sleep.
I am just chilling out myself. I am enjoying my evening alone. I resorted the music on my mp3 player. Now I have to delete the songs I don't want. It put all my music on that is on my computer. I pushed a button that I didn't know what it did. LOL It erased my mp3 music and reput on my music. OOPsie.
I am also playing my neopets game online. I am also trying to remember artists names so I can download them on Limewire and then put them on my mp3. I hate when I can't think of an artists names.
I plan to move the bookcase from the living room to the office. It is heavy and in two parts. I have to make room in the office to make room for the bookcase. I just want everything out of the middle of the living room!
ONe of these days I am going to figure out where to put everything that is on the kitchen table. I like it when my table is clean so we can sit and eat or play a board game. So I will lounge at the computer for two more hours then I will try and move that bookcase.
That is all for now. Enjoy your evenings. Sorry about your thumb Dave!! Dork...
I haven't written in several days. I haven't been in the mood and I have been fighting Susan for computer time. She started back to work today. She is just a waitress instead of a manager. She made good money tonight. She worked from 5p to 1am though. When she got home we went out for ciggies and medicines at CVS.
I talked to my Aunt Effie today to see if she will loan us rent money. She will let me know tomorrow after she talks with her husband. Our rent will be late if they do loan us money. The mail doesn't run on Monday.
I have been in a good mood these past three days. I did take my medicines late tonight at 7pm instead of 5pm. I will take my seroquel in an hour or so.
Susan is trying to go to sleep. She is so tired from work. She can't sleep. She is trying to fall asleep in the recliner with the tv on to distract her from a spinning mind. She has been out of her Lithium for a couple of days. We couldn't afford them. So tomorrow she starts back on her lithium and topamax. Maybe tomorrow we can afford my ativan for her. She has so much anxiety when she works.
So nothing but average days here. Nothing much going on...i just felt like journaling. It is nice to have boring (no drama) days.
I ended up sleeping until 6pm when Susan got home. I didn't feel like accomplishing anything during the day. I did cook dinner. Tomorrow/today I am making meatloaf mash potatoes and green beans. Tonight I moved the stuff upstairs that Susan wanted me to do last night. I also moved the entertainment center in to its place. That was enough moving crap around for me for the night.
Susan is going back to kentucky tomorrow to visit her dad. So I will have another day to be by myself. Of course I will probably sleep the day away. Susan wants me to make some phone calls. I f'ing hate making phone calls! I have to call my brother, the student loan people, and places about a car loan. Why couldn't she just take the damn phone with her?
Oh heck I have made myself mad again. I am going to take my medicine and go to bed. I will journal later tomorrow.
Hell. Susan made an appointment in Kentucky to go and talk to a lawyer about changing power of attorney and getting her dad out of the nursing home. She is too totally pissed off at me because I wouldn't go with her. "There are tons of things I do for you that I don't want to." Whatever. I refused to go down there because the last two times I went down there the 'sisters' stressed me out. I don't like her siblings. I also wanted a day just to myself. I am so stressed it isn't funny. We counted our change out last night. I had $60 in change. I put gas in the car and bought Susan ciggies. I still have $40 in the bank and $10 in my wallet. I gave that all to Susan for her trip so she won't run out of gas. I sent the phone with her too so I won't be bothered with that today. I am so run down. This moving crap really wears me out. Susan wanted me to haul some stuff upstairs for her at 1am. I told her I am not on a night schedule and that it was my bedtime. So she blew up again. Italian f'ing women!!! Okay. Thanks for letting me rant. Now I am going to try and enjoy the rest of the day by myself.
