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Tuesday, June 24th, 2008
Time: 10:58 pm
Subject: Wonder Woman to the Rescue!
Mood: Contemplative
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Wonder Woman to the Rescue! 
 
I have what I like to call 'Wonder Woman' syndrome - I have to be careful not to jump into things to quickly without thinking them through because I want to save or would like to think I can save the world - Fully KNOWING I can't!!! lol Luckily I realized this a few years back and have learned it's better to think things through lest I become overwhelmed, though I STILL find myself doing this now and then...
Like a freight train on a collision course...  in my minds eye, I see Wonder Woman there, just in the nick of time as the train is about to go off the deep end.  Using her mighty powers, she slows the train before it's too late... before things get toooo out of control. 
 
This past weekend was one of those overwhelming times.  As my daughter & her little family are getting ready to move out of state, I found myself volunteering to have my grandaughter spend the night and then spend all... (and I do mean ALL) day with me on Sunday.  This, after I'd just finished a most excruciating yet exhilarating week in training to become a 'Peer Counselor'.  Excruciating, because of the amount of information that was stuffed into my brain, and exhilarating because it was a training that I was really excited about and enjoyed beyond anything I'd experienced in a long time.
 
Taking a deep breath, 'Wonder Woman' stops the train, before it derails.  She says to herself, 'We need to slow this thing down', take a breath and regroup, after all Rome wasn't built in a day. 
 
Recognizing a need to slow down is a fairly new skill for this Wonder Woman - as the train comes to a slow chug, I pat myself on the back for having noticed where the train was headed.  There's still much I want to conquer, putting my training of that from last week, and an earlier training I'd received to help me notice such things to good use, is a priority and something I'm feeling a need and a desire to concentrate on. 
For those of you who know me, this might mean I don't get back to you as quickly as I once would have as I take a little extra time to focus.
 
'Don't lose sight of that destination' she says, you're getting there.
  
Wonder Woman to the Rescue!
©Sue Ray (of Sonshine, Silliness, & Legends) 2008.
All Rights Reserved  It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.  Ps.18:32

 
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Time: 3:48 am
Subject: Woo Hoo!!
Mood: Exhausted
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Last week was a rough yet exciting week.  I did get into the Peer Counselor Training class & though it was a week full of information overload, I survived, met some wonderful people, and now am trying to get caught up on a few things. 

Looking around my humble abode, I've noticed it's in a VERY sad state of disarray!!  lol  I'll have to do something about that one of these days just as I recoup.  For now, I just thought I'd pop in and say howdy, but will try to share some other cool stuff in the near future.

Love & Hugs,

Sue

 
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Tuesday, June 3rd, 2008
Time: 4:12 am
Subject: Just checking In...
Mood: Optimistic
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Things seem to be going rather well lately.  I'm getting out & walking twice a week with a friend, which is one of them things I SO dislike doing on my own. 

Started volunteering at the Mental Health Clinic near me a few weeks ago 1 day a week, and have added a 2nd day as of yesterday. 

Have found lots more good stuff on the internet, which always amazes me...  Got a problem, type in one word, or what it has to do with in google & you'd be surprised how much you could find to help!!

I'm feeling better than I have in a LONG time overall...  God is good!!

Wishing each of you an absolutely wonderful day!!
Hugs,

Sue






 
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Thursday, May 22nd, 2008
Time: 8:04 am
Subject: Gone Bananas, Be Back Soon! :D
Mood: Happy
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Yesterday was a pretty good day.  Started off with an appt with my neurologist.  She seems to believe the ongoing problems that I was having with dizziness was indeed a side effect of the medications I'd been taking, coupled with my blood pressure getting to low.  I had been taking blood pressure medication because it had been elevated 130 -160 over 70.  Over these last months I've had days where my blood pressure was under the 100's....  the lowest I've seen was at 76/55.  After the recent med changes, I thought about stopping the blood pressure medication and just monitoring it (have a blood pressure taker thingy at home), so last week I did just that, and it hasn't ventured above 118/72.  My pulse rate had also been 'up', and since stopping the blood pressure med, it seems to stay in the 60-70 range...  it had previously gotten as high as 90.  I shared all that with the neurologist, and she believes I did/am doing the right thing.

After my appt, I went for my first official day of volunteering in the resource room at the mental health clinic I go to.  The gal in charge of the room shared some of the stuff I'd brought in with me with a co-worker and said ' Can I keep her? '  She seemed pretty impressed with my 'information gathering' skills & at how much help I was.  She looked at me at one point and said 'WHERE did you come from?!'  I laughed & responded 'Mars!'  I can already tell she's gonna be a hoot to work with!

Last nite I went to Dinner & Karaoke with some friends, one of which is from my Bipolar Support Group.  Tho she's come to Karaoke with me a few times before, last nite was the first she saw of my 'hammin it up' side.  My other friend, has known me for a few years & is quite used to my antics of silliness.  Anyhow, as she was leaving she said to me, 'I wish I'da bought a camera with me, when I first met you I thought you were this quiet, reserved, prim, proper, kind of person, but as I've gotten to see tonite I was so far off the mark ~  I couldn't help but laugh, You're a riot!  I'da loved to bring a picture of this side of you to group!!'     That just tickled my funny bone somethin fierce! 

What a great day!!
Hope all is going well in the world of each of you!!
Hugs,

Sue




 
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Sunday, May 18th, 2008
Time: 12:30 pm
Subject: Gonna Be a Toasty Day!
Mood: Cheerful
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For the third day in a row, the sun is shining BRIGHTLY here.  It's just after 10 am, I have both of my fans going, and my windows open yet it feels like it's about 100 degrees in here! 

My daughter Diana and grandson Davian spent the night last nite & she is working today.  I took her to drop him off at the sitter & her to catch her bus, it was SOOOOOOO much cooler outside I wanted to just stay outside but I'm exhausted as I was up til 3am waiting for her to get back from a memorial.  I was quite proud of myself when I told her in the future my limit is 11pm.  I would have gone to sleep, however she has been known to have seizures, and as she was planning on taking the bus back to my house, I was rather worried!!  :: rolls eyes :: children, ya just gotta love 'em.

Had hoped to make it to church today, but as I haven't had a shower yet & it starts in just a few minutes, I KNOW I'm not going to make it! 

Aside from that, all is well in my world.  My grandaughter Karina will be here later this afternoon.  She LOVES Veggie Tales!  I just realized the other day I THOUGHT her favorite was 'Lord of the Bean'.  It seems she has another, tho I'm not sure which is the more favorite.  She seemed to know 'Dave & The Giant Pickle' maybe BETTER than Lord of the Bean....  she actually repeats some of the lines and Sings along with the songs quite well!!

Wishing each of you a wonderful day!
Hugs,

Sue





 
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Saturday, May 17th, 2008
Time: 5:48 am
Subject: Things are Lookin Up!!
Mood: Content
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Things have been pretty crazy around here, However, this past week has been a REALLY great week and I haven't checked in lately, so I thought it was about time...

I've been hoping to attend 'Peer Counselor Training', had submitted my application, it was accepted and I was put on the waiting list.  People who were working or volunteering already in the mental health field have priority.  My case manager had told me about a volunteer opportunity at our clinic and I've been trying unsuccessfully to get in touch with the contact.  I FINALLY got through to her voicemail last Friday and left a message as she hadn't been in on the days my case manager told me she would.

Monday morning the gal called, and I went in to meet with her, and then Wednesday afternoon, went in to meet with her and her boss.  Turns out she had been gone to the same training!!  lol  ANYWAY, I officially start volunteering next Wednesday.  I updated the people in charge of the waiting list, and was told if even ONE person that was already sent an invite doesn't respond, or decides the time isn't right for them, I'm IN!!  The likelyhood of that happening, I was told, it pretty good!!!     

In addition to this I met with my psych doc today and due to the fact I'm seemingly able to keep myself afloat, he didn't add anything to replace the Geodon.  So for now, I'm keeping Stratterra for ADD, and the Seroquel.  Though I've had some depression, it hasn't stayed with me enough to make life unbearable, and I've been able to pull myself out.  I've also noticed that I haven't felt as numb as I'd felt when taking Equetro (similar to Tegretol/Carbamazapine) It feels good to feel....  even when I've had the depression, tears...  I haven't felt in SO long....  pretty cleansing!!  My motivation seems to have been better too, which I started noticing when I started my rearranging!  Although dishes, still seem to be my downfall!!  lol

We talked about antidepressants and he said if I truly have Bipolar disorder (which he is now questioning) there's a possibility taking one without taking a mood stabilizer could cause a manic phase.   So for now, it's just keep a close eye on things, and see how it goes. 

I feel hopeful for the future, things are looking up!
Hope all is going well with each of you!
Hugs,

Sue

 
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Thursday, May 8th, 2008
Time: 7:40 pm
Subject: Arggggh!
Mood: Crushed
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Just had a new entry written & it disappeared.      Think I'll take a nap & re-write later!  Hope everyone is havin a great day!
Hugs,

Sue

 
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Friday, May 2nd, 2008
Time: 4:18 pm
Subject: The Flying Nun...
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The Flying Nun

I remember when I was younger one of the programs that I'd loved to watch was the Flying Nun. I'm sure you can imagine the excitement I must have felt when I came across it in the TV Series Videos on Netflix. I’d been like a kid at Christmas waiting for the first one to come in the mail.

So one afternoon several months ago, I was watching, oh I think it was the 3rd episode... I'm not sure which season, when Sister Batrill received a treasure chest via air freight which, had belonged to her now deceased 87 year old Aunt. Ohhhh the things they removed from that thing! lol A Big Blue Feather Boa, A Wig, etc...

It was funny because She had been telling the Sisters what a Sweet Little Ole Lady she was and out comes all this stuff and a black negligee. Anyhow, the last thing she pulled out was a bright red Parasol... Our dear Flying Nun thought it would help to temper her flying & landing.

As she went up, flying through the air with that umbrella, I got to thinking. Wouldn't it be wonderful to be able to do that? I know there have been times I'd like to have been able to do just that. I know where I'da flown... Straight up & into God's lap.

Sometimes I've felt like I've been living someone else’s life… I don't know when it started, but I DO know, that there have been times I wondered what on earth was going on. Once upon a time I would never have thought & done some of the silly things I can now say that I've done in the past. I certainly wouldn't say I'd have enjoyed them.. but I HAVE done some really off the wall stuff, and enjoyed them at that time.

Looking back, I just shake my head, as I know God must've been doing. There have been times I've found I wasn't so sure I really knew, or even liked this person I had become back then. I could so easily place the blame elsewhere, and I have to admit, at times I did.. But I always knew I was responsible for the choices I made.

Sometimes I would think if we rewound my life a bit... Ya ever have those moments?? Did you wonder, too as I did, Can we do it Lord…. Oh Please Oh Please Oh Please!!???

Those were the times, I'd have loved more than anything, to be able fly right up & to crawl into my Heavenly Father's lap!

What's that? I see…. Oh, so that's not how it works… Darn, & I was hopin... weren't you? But I Give Thanks that He is ALWAYS ready to walk us through, whatever comes our way. It IS sometimes more than a little tough. Having a friend like Him beside us, well that DOES make a big difference…

Can you see Him as I do
that mighty God of ours,
sitting in His big ole chair
with that sketchbook in His hand?
Can you see Him as I do
drawing pics of me and you
as we go about our lives

Can you see Him as I do
that mighty God of ours,
sitting in His big ole chair
with that tissue, in His hands?
Can you see Him as I do
drying up those tears you cry
when you just don't understand

Can you see Him as I do
that mighty God of ours,
sitting in His big ole chair
with His arms stretched open wide?
Can you see Him as I do
waiting for you to say
Abba Daddy I have found
you have plans I just can't see
and I don't have to worry 'cause
I know You're looking after me

Well creep on up over here
let me show you how it's done
Put your hand in His my friend
as He sketches one by one
Climb upon His lap and
this is what you'll see
Our Abba Daddy sketching out
the lives, of you, and me..
-
Maybe it seems crazy, but to Him you're everything
He just wants to be the one you turn to
He wants to be your King

Can you see Him as I do
that mighty God of ours,
sitting in His Big Ole chair
with that sketchbook in His hand
Can you see Him as I do,
as He turns around to say
Hush my child, all is fine
for I have heard you pray
 
The Flying Nun's bright red umbrella turned inside out, and she catapulted, landing in the Convent's garden pond... TOTALLY drenched, she cried out, "God? What does Mary Poppins got that I haven't got?" How many times have you found YOURSELF comparing the gifts He gave you, to those of another? I've found myself doing just that more times than I'd like to admit!! And yet, how can we not compare ourselves to one another... sometimes, if only to say, I'm glad I'm not in their shoes!!

God is the only artist of the Sketchbook for your life and mine, and what a beautiful artist He is...
The Flying Nun - ©Sue Ray, May 2007
Sketches from God - ©Sue Ray, Jan 2006
Sonshine, Silliness, & Legends Inc.
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Hope you’ve enjoyed this!!
Love & Hugs,
Sue Ray (of Sonshine, Silliness & Legends)
www.shoutlife.com/suebsingin
www.myspace.com/dynomitewomanw_anopinion It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. Ps.18:32 NIV