hello everyone glad to have found this site i have been looking for a support group on a manic high the days when i feel like leaving the house to enjoy life wish everyday was like that. life seemed so simple before this illness. i was dianosed with bipolar in 2001 my fiance left me for someone else and i lost it i had just had our son i weighed 192 when he left i got on herbal life to lose some weight i lost 80 pounds in 4 months my whole family that i was on drugs herbal life is efedra i even named the tea happy tea it should of been my first clue. alot happened that year. I was at the county fair when a pychic approuched me she said she could see i was in spiritaul warfare and needed to be cleased she promised me beauty and the love of my life she said 9 is the highest spiritaul number she told me to put 9 100.00 9 50's 9 20's 9 10's 9 5's 9 1's under my pillow after about a month she said money was the route of all evil and it needed to be burned so i would be cleased a free from karma the day i gave her my money she said you will be leaving sac abrutly i said your crazy i have a resturant a house and children well within 3 weeks of that statement i was homeless jobless childless first manic episode i had no idea what was happening lost all that weight moved to vegas and lived on lake mead for a year. ended up getting arrested for tresspassing here in nevada that is 1 year in a womans facility to say i was scared is a understatement 911 just happened and the judge dropped the charges i than went home and sought help they told me p d d then i was hospitalized and told bipolar after getting on meds i went 5 years without 1 episode i thought it was behind me as soon as my new relationship ended i had another one and since than 3 more 2 really bad. i do my best to cope its not easy. thanks for this site. Hi=ailo