today we went to the obgyn for my first official visit only to find the baby has no heartbeat. obviously we are devastated. I go for a d&c tommarow and am nervous, this will be my first ever surgery. it seems simple enough though. hope you all are doing well. this is rhe firsy time I've been on in a while and its such bad news. im coming to find thouh that im quite resilient. until next time.