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74lilly — Sat, 23 May 2009 16:13:58 -0500

nice memorial day weekend!

upset with myself

74lilly — Fri, 22 May 2009 05:33:35 -0500

I end up staying up all night chatting and cleaning the house,I couldn t fall asleep at all so i guess i will stay up all day and go to bed early tonight!

venting again

74lilly — Tue, 19 May 2009 01:03:36 -0500

i'm just getting depressed because of my sleep everytime i lay down i m back up.... i woke early yesterday and was busy now i can t sleep better talk with my doctor if this continues

just venting

74lilly — Mon, 18 May 2009 22:31:46 -0500

My youngest daughter suffers pervasive developmental problems and adhd it took a long time to find out what was wrong with her.She is now 13 she has a loving mom i take very good care of her and the school system (public that is)(because she can give me a hard time going to school)i'm just learning about her problem and)wants to send her court they even know the trouble it has been with her aswell,i m sending her to a bigger university to get more help or her,Just because she has a hard time getting to school she will not be put in the juevenile system thank god for good lawyers!

my day

74lilly — Mon, 18 May 2009 18:43:32 -0500

my day was very busy just a lil worried about my daughter i hope she is going to be ok and i m sure she will... :) I'm just kinda tired and bored not used to being able to relax was always so hyper...i guess the meds working then.

good day so far

74lilly — Fri, 17 Apr 2009 00:00:00 -0500

I'm doing laundry and soon dying my daughter's hair just jotting down in my journal to keep a eye on my moods

sleepless

74lilly — Sat, 16 May 2009 22:41:59 -0500

its midnight and i'm not tired went to lay down and couldn t sleep :( may have to take a benedryl...

abilify

74lilly — Sat, 16 May 2009 19:29:44 -0500

I don t see my doctor until the 6th of june i got put on abilify 30 mgs but it makes me feel hyper and cut back to the 15 mg tabs feel fine now....

woke up just now :(

74lilly — Sat, 16 May 2009 11:36:44 -0500

Just got up hope i don t follow this schedule need to set my alarm... hope everyone is having a nice weekend....

just got out of the hospitol

74lilly — Fri, 15 May 2009 21:41:26 -0500

sorry i didn t get back to anyone i was in the hospitol after a overdose for 12 days got my meds back on track and doing well... just taking it one day at a time :)

even though i m hurt

74lilly — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 21:06:56 -0500

i still want to invite my grandmother to my daughter's birthday.My mom held in alot of grudges and i don t want to be like her.... fuull of anger.I'm a little anxious because i took my lithium and it was of a different color (then the normal color) i just have to keep telling myself it is lithium not anything thats going to harm me....

being productive

74lilly — Mon, 07 Jan 1974 00:00:00 -0500

I'm proud of myself at the moment because i threw out alot of junk that i needed to get rid of.... i have organized my closet and made a list of things i need to do tommorow... i'm chasing the thoughts out of my head and making them into positive ones... i threw a load of laundry in washed the dishes and i'm going to figure out what i'm making for dinner then i'm going to dry my clothes mop the floor soon take my meds and hopefully a good nights rest

being selfish

74lilly — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 16:57:59 -0500

i feel sad that i'm being so selfis because when i read everyone else's troubles some had it worse and going through tough times worse then mine...i'm thankful i found this site because now i can relate and not be alone...

is this right

74lilly — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 14:49:48 -0500

I was in the hospitol twice the first time i talked with my caseworker to make arrangements for my daughter... I put down my father's mother as a person to stay with while i got in the hospitol.My poor daughter couldn't stay with her because she didn t want to get involved.It makes me feel sad because my other cousins are welcome to stay with her is it because i m not a lawyer or a doctor because she allows them to stay.I never done anything to her and i always treated her nice but i guess i m not accepted nor her grandchildren... :(

anti depressents

74lilly — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 14:13:43 -0500

I was taking off of prozac due to my bipolar it made me manic,But yet i'm depressed ...wonder what kind of medication i can take without making me manic?

pain

74lilly — Mon, 07 Jan 1974 00:00:00 -0500

I want my inner pain to stop i don t want to live the past...i want to be like i used to be... i want to get out more not just to the grocery store or the doctors...I love my children dearly i don t want them to see me suffer like i m in a trance... i want to be that mother like i used to be happy full of joy going and taking them places.... being social not isolated.I just want to beat this and let the pain that is inside me fade away

bipolar 1

74lilly — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 05:52:03 -0500

Is there anyone else with the similar condition as this if so please contact me...