I am so confused as to my state of mental health. I have been diagnosed with BPD, OCD, anxiety/panic atttacks, mild agoraphobia and paranoia. I walked in to see my gp and he figured this all out in an hour (a bit rich if u ask me). I think i may more likely hav bipolar as my father did. Well heres a list of my symptoms. I have erratic moods ranging from a really suicidal low in which i draw up of a list of the people i hate and how there going to die-to a high where i feel like im on drugs (only tried them once) Ialso hav another mood where i am violent, abusive and i phisically abuse my partner, inc. threatning him with knives and suck. Sometimes I hear voices and tune out and i think all my friends are in the room with me and start talking to them. theres also the voices i talk to when im angry, like my inner concience.I ve found myself wandering the streets in a daze and not nowing how i got there. Sorry for the long blog, but i really need help!!!!!!!
Hello everyone. I am 22 years old and suffer from depression and anxiety. I always knew as a kid that i wasnt as energetic and happy as other kids but i never thought about depression until last year. I started really feeling liek the pits, I was irrational and iritable all the time. I started eating less, sleeping more and pretty much became a hermit. I started having thoughts of dying. I was so wrapped up in everything i didnt realise most of my actions. One day i caught myself looking through the bathroom to see what meds i had lying around. I went to the doctor(after many fights with my bf about it) and went on soem anti-deppressants. They floored me....couldnt sleep and just felt like shit all the time. I finally had a break down and ended up in the emergency ward at the hospital. I stayed for 5 weeks...I came out feeling no better just more aware of what thoughts were in my mind.
I am hoping to meet people on here that i can speak freely to and someone that can understand how it feels and how bad you hurt sometimes. I thought most people understood alittle about depression but my bf and my family doesnt understand how hard it is to get up somedays or why i cant sleep. Sometimes i dont have the energy or the drive to get up and even make a sandwich, wash the dishes or even do my makeup. I look forward to talking with people that have similar feeling and experieces
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i am new to this site as of today. Im a bit weary about expressing myself but im tring... I was diagnosed a little over a yr ago with manicdepression/bipolar homicidal/suicidal tendencies, add, anxiety, schitz. i lost my job, my house and my husband 3 yrs ago, because of all of this... i struggle everyday to get through the day. Last january i tried to take my life. lucky for me i had a man who loved me and stood by my side.. I didnt care about my kids, my life, my house or anything. I snapped at everyone, yelled and screamed and had horrible fits... he found me unconsious and unresonsive. I took a bottle of klopins and serequill hopin to end my life.. I was then hospitalized.. Now i struggle every day to try and find the right meds to take.. it is a real fight, because ive been off my meds for 2 months and cant afford them... So i am going without, and struggling to deal with this, i dont sleep, have anxiety attacks, have manic episodes and dont no what to do.. I am going through the stage of taking my meds, and feeling better and them not taking them again.. Ive been hospitalized twice this passed yr.. finally found a med that helps with the bipolar and m insurance wont cover it,, now what i have to start all over again,, will i ever get this staightened out will i get the right meds? this is horrible feeling hopeless and worthless and aloone..
