After counselling, meds and all those tests, it has been decided I have Major Depression and BPD. Not BD 2. Which is really weird. I am more down than normal feeling. And yes some of the aspects fit. However does this happen to you:

Excited/happy for no reason, may last half an hour, then deflated, then racing thoughts, then sad and irritable, then angry, then empty and finally, its all ok, Im feeling fine there is nothing wrong with me.

All of that happens quickly for me but atleast 3+ times a week. Im ok with no BD, however I dont think BPD covers these irratic rash behaviours and feelings. Or am I wrong? Anyone similar to this??????

 Why So Dark !?

Hey, this is my first time posting anything on this site, ever, so I hope I'm doing it right!

My current problem is that out of nowhere I start hating individual people in my life; friends, family, and strangers alike.  Typically, they have done nothing wrong, but when I look at him/her or hear him/her speak, I get extremely irritated.  I was to punch them in the face and slam their head against a wall.  Consequently, this is putting a strain on almost all of my relationships.  I’ve had to isolate myself so I’m not mean or rude to people I do truly care about.  I’m not really sure what to do because I can totally rationalize my rage, and I’m not sure if that’s the truth, or the borderline.  I really am a kind person, so it’s hard having these emotions.  And the fact that I care not about what’s happening, but that I don’t care about what’s happening, is upsetting.  I know about cognitive distortions and all that, but I’m having so much difficulty giving in when I think I’m 100% right.  Has anyone ever had a similar problem, or even intensely hated just one person?  Like I said, I’m a good person, so this issue is kind of embarrassing for me.  If anyone has any suggestions how I can get over myself, please let me know!

Thanks so much!!!