with all the bipolar talk recently to put me in a box, i forget im in so much pain from anxiety. The does and trips for morphine shots to ease the tension in my body. Hands shake so much. half the time i dont notice anymore till a person stares.
I cant go anywhere alone, not the local shop, or walk, or shopping.
Time, lack of it or a waste of it gives me such flushes and heart panics i fall. turn red. aimless i walk around the house. in and out of rooms , i just cant remember why i was there in the first place.
try to get my life on a path, joined a tafe. but can't go alone to admin. how am i going to go to a class full of people?
I mediate i do what the docs say, i take my pills and at the end of the day or sleepless night from the body twiching, its a sigh. Is this now the mark i have made from my time on earth?why so dark?
Hi everyone. I notice that no one has posted to this group for quite some time. I deal with high anxiety most of the time. I have trouble leaving the apartment, meeting new people, getting to therapy, hanging out with my family, and looking for a job/working. I am currently taking Buspar and Ativan for anxiety.
I know that 99% of my anxiety is caused by cognitive distortions in the way I am thinking. I feel threatened by everyone and nearly every situation. But it's not enough for me to know that my thinking is distorted and that I am reacting to pure fiction in my mind. I need to exercise my brain so that it develops the habit of challening the distorted thoughts.
I use the exercises in Dr. David Burn's book "Feeling Good." I was a patient of Dr. Burns in the 80's in Philadelphia. You should be able to find the book in pretty much every major bookstore. It was published several years ago but remains popular so it shouldn't be difficult to acquire. The exercises involve writing down the thoughts that make you anxious. You then identify which cognitive distortion is at work from a list that Dr. Burns talks about in detail. Then you write healthy responses to the distortions. If you are diligent, you eventually develop new habits in your thought process. It's actually a great journaling exercise.
So maybe this will help someone. I hope everyone has a great day, one step at a time.
Randy
