a good guy,
showed up like the wind at my back and moved me back into the sun
looking forward to returning the favor,
gratefully-
Threadbare
Aw thanks for your kind words!!!!!!!!! Well i try be a good friend and be there for others. However at times it can be quite hard. Thanks for considering me a friend. I hope things will work out for you.. I wish you all the best... It was very hard for me openly admit that I have an issues, but people so far have made me feel welcome. I feel like I am part of close nit family.. It's nice to see the support that people give each other on "RMH" and other's ... I find that I can share my inner most regrading issues around this topic and i won't be judge.. Thanks again, for making me feel welcomed..
aw thanks for your kind response to my journal's. I really feel welcome. The thing is for years as mention before, I was in state of denile eventhough i knew for a very long time that that something was wrong... I had suffer with a chemical imblancement issues for many years. All the stress and pain i have endure all of these could have been pervented early on, however I was not ready to listen nor was I ready seek professional help.. Until like 3or 4 months ago when my mother had spoken to me, then I was finally ready to listen. Then finally this past june I had enough courage to speak to my primary doctor regrading that may have bipolar .. so he had given me a per-screening bipolar test.. and he said I may have a form of bipolar so he reffer to me to docotor to get screen for bipolar.. Sure enough as my parents and my inciling was correct I did have a form of biopolar.. I was dignosed with "Boarder- line Specturm Biopolar" at first I was sacared when i got diagnosed. But I am glad to have such a supportive family.. there is history of depression in my family. My "beloved" aunt was diagnosed with "manic depression" "manic depperssive" aka Biopolar early on. Although she is taking much heavier disoage of medication then I am.. She is albe to function in to society which is great.. Eventhough he has major side affects.. she is able to be productive memeber of society.. in fact that is one of the major issues with heavy disoages of medication. Its the side effects.. Luckly i was put on such a low disoage, but it had taken me awhile to adjust to the medication sinced i rarely needed to take any medication to begin with.. well finally i am adjusting well to the medication. It great that they have alternative treatments for bipolar. I think i will also look into the other alternatives as well to help treat my illiness. I can imagine how tough it must be for those who have sever case of bipolar.Luckly i do not have as bad as some others. It must be real struggle especially to those to do not respond to any medication that was prescribe to them.. One of these days they may actually find a cure for all mental illiness. That would indeed be cool. But untill then we just have to grin and bare it..
well take care,
your new friend
giggles
